Iwas sitting in my Financial Management class when I was writing this (literally, that is)... Yesterday, during my Islam, Knowledge and Civilization class, my lecturer said something about education should be given for free... And today, as I was sitting by my class' window, I kinda wonder about these:
1- Where did all the tax, toll and what not money went to?
2- How about the zakat money paid by all the Muslims in Malaysia?... Where did they go?...
3- And what about the money donated to temples, monasteries, churches and mosques?... What did the people in charge of the money do with them?...
4- How come there's a lot of homeless people and beggars on the streets of out country?...
5- How come during the reign of Umar Abdul Aziz (one of the most pious Umayyid Caliphs), the people prospered so much that the Bait Al-Maal (the organization responsible for managing all the taxes and zakat paid by the subjects of Umayyid Empire) officers had to run around the streets of the city just to find people who need money?...
As much as I tried to find the answer, the question keeps on getting more and more complicated... Bleargh...
Neways, my plan on joining Askar Wataniah (reserve army, or should I say "weekend soldier") was ruined... Why?... I can't get the required 6 pieces of pasport-sized pictures... Too damn expensive!!!... I guess I'll have to wait for another year or semester to join them... In the mean time, I might as well be satisfied with Silat Cekak Ustaz Hanafi... Come to think about it, I haven't taken Sijil Rendah Persilatan (SRP) and Sijil Tinggi Persilatan (STP) which will qualify me to be a Cekak trainer... Imagine that; a softie, teaching martial arts... Kowaii yaaa... Don't look down on me... I WAS one of the assistanttrainers when I was in High School... An exceptional one, if not one of the best... Dang, I'm beginning to sound like that person >.<...
There's something bugging me these few days... Someone had been miscalling me from a public phone... What bugs me so much is that the numbers are Borneo numbers (08-8253174, 08-8259065)... I only have 3 people who knows my number AND comes from Borneo: Miaka, Alex, and Ixus (not the camera)... But none of them seems to be the one who made those calls @_@... GRAWR... ... ... Mysterious caller, if you are reading this, can't you at least make those calls from another handphone?... Telekom hasn't installed any sms-compliant deviceson public phones, you know... Geez... This is really annoying >__________________________________<...
Ihab is off to UK today at 8am... I wonder if he's already reached UK... If my calculation is correct, he should arrive at UK by 10-11pm , Malaysian time... I'll be missing him, again... But this time, I won't break down as I did last year... Now, I have other pillars to lean on to, and I also have to be strong for the people who are leaning on me... Saa, ganbaruze!!... :3...
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Oh, lookie... Thoughts...
Iwas sitting in my Financial Management class when I was writing this (literally, that is)... Yesterday, during my Islam, Knowledge and Civilization class, my lecturer said something about education should be given for free... And today, as I was sitting by my class' window, I kinda wonder about these:
1- Where did all the tax, toll and what not money went to?
2- How about the zakat money paid by all the Muslims in Malaysia?... Where did they go?...
3- And what about the money donated to temples, monasteries, churches and mosques?... What did the people in charge of the money do with them?...
4- How come there's a lot of homeless people and beggars on the streets of out country?...
5- How come during the reign of Umar Abdul Aziz (one of the most pious Umayyid Caliphs), the people prospered so much that the Bait Al-Maal (the organization responsible for managing all the taxes and zakat paid by the subjects of Umayyid Empire) officers had to run around the streets of the city just to find people who need money?...
As much as I tried to find the answer, the question keeps on getting more and more complicated... Bleargh...
Neways, my plan on joining Askar Wataniah (reserve army, or should I say "weekend soldier") was ruined... Why?... I can't get the required 6 pieces of pasport-sized pictures... Too damn expensive!!!... I guess I'll have to wait for another year or semester to join them... In the mean time, I might as well be satisfied with Silat Cekak Ustaz Hanafi... Come to think about it, I haven't taken Sijil Rendah Persilatan (SRP) and Sijil Tinggi Persilatan (STP) which will qualify me to be a Cekak trainer... Imagine that; a softie, teaching martial arts... Kowaii yaaa... Don't look down on me... I WAS one of the assistanttrainers when I was in High School... An exceptional one, if not one of the best... Dang, I'm beginning to sound like that person >.<...
There's something bugging me these few days... Someone had been miscalling me from a public phone... What bugs me so much is that the numbers are Borneo numbers (08-8253174, 08-8259065)... I only have 3 people who knows my number AND comes from Borneo: Miaka, Alex, and Ixus (not the camera)... But none of them seems to be the one who made those calls @_@... GRAWR... ... ... Mysterious caller, if you are reading this, can't you at least make those calls from another handphone?... Telekom hasn't installed any sms-compliant deviceson public phones, you know... Geez... This is really annoying >__________________________________<...
Ihab is off to UK today at 8am... I wonder if he's already reached UK... If my calculation is correct, he should arrive at UK by 10-11pm , Malaysian time... I'll be missing him, again... But this time, I won't break down as I did last year... Now, I have other pillars to lean on to, and I also have to be strong for the people who are leaning on me... Saa, ganbaruze!!... :3...
1- Where did all the tax, toll and what not money went to?
2- How about the zakat money paid by all the Muslims in Malaysia?... Where did they go?...
3- And what about the money donated to temples, monasteries, churches and mosques?... What did the people in charge of the money do with them?...
4- How come there's a lot of homeless people and beggars on the streets of out country?...
5- How come during the reign of Umar Abdul Aziz (one of the most pious Umayyid Caliphs), the people prospered so much that the Bait Al-Maal (the organization responsible for managing all the taxes and zakat paid by the subjects of Umayyid Empire) officers had to run around the streets of the city just to find people who need money?...
As much as I tried to find the answer, the question keeps on getting more and more complicated... Bleargh...
Neways, my plan on joining Askar Wataniah (reserve army, or should I say "weekend soldier") was ruined... Why?... I can't get the required 6 pieces of pasport-sized pictures... Too damn expensive!!!... I guess I'll have to wait for another year or semester to join them... In the mean time, I might as well be satisfied with Silat Cekak Ustaz Hanafi... Come to think about it, I haven't taken Sijil Rendah Persilatan (SRP) and Sijil Tinggi Persilatan (STP) which will qualify me to be a Cekak trainer... Imagine that; a softie, teaching martial arts... Kowaii yaaa... Don't look down on me... I WAS one of the assistanttrainers when I was in High School... An exceptional one, if not one of the best... Dang, I'm beginning to sound like that person >.<...
There's something bugging me these few days... Someone had been miscalling me from a public phone... What bugs me so much is that the numbers are Borneo numbers (08-8253174, 08-8259065)... I only have 3 people who knows my number AND comes from Borneo: Miaka, Alex, and Ixus (not the camera)... But none of them seems to be the one who made those calls @_@... GRAWR... ... ... Mysterious caller, if you are reading this, can't you at least make those calls from another handphone?... Telekom hasn't installed any sms-compliant deviceson public phones, you know... Geez... This is really annoying >__________________________________<...
Ihab is off to UK today at 8am... I wonder if he's already reached UK... If my calculation is correct, he should arrive at UK by 10-11pm , Malaysian time... I'll be missing him, again... But this time, I won't break down as I did last year... Now, I have other pillars to lean on to, and I also have to be strong for the people who are leaning on me... Saa, ganbaruze!!... :3...
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
*Dust flying*...
Bleargh... How long has it been?... Ages?... More like eons :p... Well, actually a lot of merry things had happened to me; my birthday, my unsuccessful wedding cosplay, outing with Kaede-tachi, birthday present from my friends, sweet revenge from other party, etc... Will go into detail next...
My birthday passed as I had expected, not many remember them :p... Including a certain someone who insisted that it was on 20th-something XD XD... Ironically that person jotted the date on a piece of paper... *Glomps Kaede* You know what, I think I like you a lot blur :3... And on that very day, I have my wedding cosplay... Actually it's the Personal Growth Group's Appreciation Night, and the theme was "wedding"... They even had a wedding stage :p... To bad for me... My "bride" ran away XD... She couldn't find a matching wedding dress, and couldn't find a purple dress as well... In the end, she didn't come at all XD XD... Went to my friend's room to straighten my hair before the "party" (those who had met me would realized that my hair is hay-wired :p)... And there another suprise awaits... MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!!... 2 large presents O_O... And guess what's inside.. .. .. A month's supply of food consisting of:
1) 3 types of biscuits
2) 2 5-pack instant noodles
3) 1 pack of Nescafe 3 in 1
4) 1 pack of Mamee
5) i jar of peanut butter (yum)
6) 1 jar of blackcurrent jam (yum yum)
And a sandwich toaster XD XD... Just the thing I had in mind *glomp friends*...
Then came Ihab's birthday present; X the movie CD... Too bad the CD had the same problem as my Mononoke Hime CD: Dual sound =.=... Anyone knows how to fix that?... And Kaede gave me X and Chobits mousepad *cho-glomps Kaede*...
Now, about the outing with Kaede, actually it wasn't really planned... Coincidently both of us had a date with Xiao Ying to pay her for the COSMAS '04 ticket... But the night prior to that day, she called me because I asked her about something in japanese (my japanese sucks big time), and we chatted a bit... Dang, it has been so long since we had a decent p2p talk... Come to think about it, there's something in her eyes, and I don't mean dust...
As for the sweet revenge, someone paid on my behalf the hatred I harboured against one of my senpais... He assaulted me because I complained about him verbally and physically assulting my friend (more like x-friend, since I had to take preventive measures and stay away from him, for his sake)... And now he nearly killed someone whom I knew because that person dared to retaliate against him... Talk about being a psycho... Which reminds me; He IS taking psychology XD XD...
If any of you haven't noticed, I had took of a name from my list and replaced it with another person's link... This is why: I don't like people who have sense of superiority in themselves, I don't like people look at others like they are nothing, and self-centered no yatsu wa daaaaaaaaaaaaaai kirai da... Who is that person?... Guess, and you might be right...
Well, that's all for now... I think after this I will only type (since I'm using a keyboard instead of a pen) about what's happening in my life when I feel like doing so... Else I'll be talking about my thoughts from time to time... I've yet to have any deep interest in anything as compared to Tenzan and wrestling... Maybe I'll find something... Soon... I think... Bleargh...
My birthday passed as I had expected, not many remember them :p... Including a certain someone who insisted that it was on 20th-something XD XD... Ironically that person jotted the date on a piece of paper... *Glomps Kaede* You know what, I think I like you a lot blur :3... And on that very day, I have my wedding cosplay... Actually it's the Personal Growth Group's Appreciation Night, and the theme was "wedding"... They even had a wedding stage :p... To bad for me... My "bride" ran away XD... She couldn't find a matching wedding dress, and couldn't find a purple dress as well... In the end, she didn't come at all XD XD... Went to my friend's room to straighten my hair before the "party" (those who had met me would realized that my hair is hay-wired :p)... And there another suprise awaits... MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!!... 2 large presents O_O... And guess what's inside.. .. .. A month's supply of food consisting of:
1) 3 types of biscuits
2) 2 5-pack instant noodles
3) 1 pack of Nescafe 3 in 1
4) 1 pack of Mamee
5) i jar of peanut butter (yum)
6) 1 jar of blackcurrent jam (yum yum)
And a sandwich toaster XD XD... Just the thing I had in mind *glomp friends*...
Then came Ihab's birthday present; X the movie CD... Too bad the CD had the same problem as my Mononoke Hime CD: Dual sound =.=... Anyone knows how to fix that?... And Kaede gave me X and Chobits mousepad *cho-glomps Kaede*...
Now, about the outing with Kaede, actually it wasn't really planned... Coincidently both of us had a date with Xiao Ying to pay her for the COSMAS '04 ticket... But the night prior to that day, she called me because I asked her about something in japanese (my japanese sucks big time), and we chatted a bit... Dang, it has been so long since we had a decent p2p talk... Come to think about it, there's something in her eyes, and I don't mean dust...
As for the sweet revenge, someone paid on my behalf the hatred I harboured against one of my senpais... He assaulted me because I complained about him verbally and physically assulting my friend (more like x-friend, since I had to take preventive measures and stay away from him, for his sake)... And now he nearly killed someone whom I knew because that person dared to retaliate against him... Talk about being a psycho... Which reminds me; He IS taking psychology XD XD...
If any of you haven't noticed, I had took of a name from my list and replaced it with another person's link... This is why: I don't like people who have sense of superiority in themselves, I don't like people look at others like they are nothing, and self-centered no yatsu wa daaaaaaaaaaaaaai kirai da... Who is that person?... Guess, and you might be right...
Well, that's all for now... I think after this I will only type (since I'm using a keyboard instead of a pen) about what's happening in my life when I feel like doing so... Else I'll be talking about my thoughts from time to time... I've yet to have any deep interest in anything as compared to Tenzan and wrestling... Maybe I'll find something... Soon... I think... Bleargh...
*Dust flying*...
Bleargh... How long has it been?... Ages?... More like eons :p... Well, actually a lot of merry things had happened to me; my birthday, my unsuccessful wedding cosplay, outing with Kaede-tachi, birthday present from my friends, sweet revenge from other party, etc... Will go into detail next...
My birthday passed as I had expected, not many remember them :p... Including a certain someone who insisted that it was on 20th-something XD XD... Ironically that person jotted the date on a piece of paper... *Glomps Kaede* You know what, I think I like you a lot blur :3... And on that very day, I have my wedding cosplay... Actually it's the Personal Growth Group's Appreciation Night, and the theme was "wedding"... They even had a wedding stage :p... To bad for me... My "bride" ran away XD... She couldn't find a matching wedding dress, and couldn't find a purple dress as well... In the end, she didn't come at all XD XD... Went to my friend's room to straighten my hair before the "party" (those who had met me would realized that my hair is hay-wired :p)... And there another suprise awaits... MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!!... 2 large presents O_O... And guess what's inside.. .. .. A month's supply of food consisting of:
1) 3 types of biscuits
2) 2 5-pack instant noodles
3) 1 pack of Nescafe 3 in 1
4) 1 pack of Mamee
5) i jar of peanut butter (yum)
6) 1 jar of blackcurrent jam (yum yum)
And a sandwich toaster XD XD... Just the thing I had in mind *glomp friends*...
Then came Ihab's birthday present; X the movie CD... Too bad the CD had the same problem as my Mononoke Hime CD: Dual sound =.=... Anyone knows how to fix that?... And Kaede gave me X and Chobits mousepad *cho-glomps Kaede*...
Now, about the outing with Kaede, actually it wasn't really planned... Coincidently both of us had a date with Xiao Ying to pay her for the COSMAS '04 ticket... But the night prior to that day, she called me because I asked her about something in japanese (my japanese sucks big time), and we chatted a bit... Dang, it has been so long since we had a decent p2p talk... Come to think about it, there's something in her eyes, and I don't mean dust...
As for the sweet revenge, someone paid on my behalf the hatred I harboured against one of my senpais... He assaulted me because I complained about him verbally and physically assulting my friend (more like x-friend, since I had to take preventive measures and stay away from him, for his sake)... And now he nearly killed someone whom I knew because that person dared to retaliate against him... Talk about being a psycho... Which reminds me; He IS taking psychology XD XD...
If any of you haven't noticed, I had took of a name from my list and replaced it with another person's link... This is why: I don't like people who have sense of superiority in themselves, I don't like people look at others like they are nothing, and self-centered no yatsu wa daaaaaaaaaaaaaai kirai da... Who is that person?... Guess, and you might be right...
Well, that's all for now... I think after this I will only type (since I'm using a keyboard instead of a pen) about what's happening in my life when I feel like doing so... Else I'll be talking about my thoughts from time to time... I've yet to have any deep interest in anything as compared to Tenzan and wrestling... Maybe I'll find something... Soon... I think... Bleargh...
My birthday passed as I had expected, not many remember them :p... Including a certain someone who insisted that it was on 20th-something XD XD... Ironically that person jotted the date on a piece of paper... *Glomps Kaede* You know what, I think I like you a lot blur :3... And on that very day, I have my wedding cosplay... Actually it's the Personal Growth Group's Appreciation Night, and the theme was "wedding"... They even had a wedding stage :p... To bad for me... My "bride" ran away XD... She couldn't find a matching wedding dress, and couldn't find a purple dress as well... In the end, she didn't come at all XD XD... Went to my friend's room to straighten my hair before the "party" (those who had met me would realized that my hair is hay-wired :p)... And there another suprise awaits... MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!!... 2 large presents O_O... And guess what's inside.. .. .. A month's supply of food consisting of:
1) 3 types of biscuits
2) 2 5-pack instant noodles
3) 1 pack of Nescafe 3 in 1
4) 1 pack of Mamee
5) i jar of peanut butter (yum)
6) 1 jar of blackcurrent jam (yum yum)
And a sandwich toaster XD XD... Just the thing I had in mind *glomp friends*...
Then came Ihab's birthday present; X the movie CD... Too bad the CD had the same problem as my Mononoke Hime CD: Dual sound =.=... Anyone knows how to fix that?... And Kaede gave me X and Chobits mousepad *cho-glomps Kaede*...
Now, about the outing with Kaede, actually it wasn't really planned... Coincidently both of us had a date with Xiao Ying to pay her for the COSMAS '04 ticket... But the night prior to that day, she called me because I asked her about something in japanese (my japanese sucks big time), and we chatted a bit... Dang, it has been so long since we had a decent p2p talk... Come to think about it, there's something in her eyes, and I don't mean dust...
As for the sweet revenge, someone paid on my behalf the hatred I harboured against one of my senpais... He assaulted me because I complained about him verbally and physically assulting my friend (more like x-friend, since I had to take preventive measures and stay away from him, for his sake)... And now he nearly killed someone whom I knew because that person dared to retaliate against him... Talk about being a psycho... Which reminds me; He IS taking psychology XD XD...
If any of you haven't noticed, I had took of a name from my list and replaced it with another person's link... This is why: I don't like people who have sense of superiority in themselves, I don't like people look at others like they are nothing, and self-centered no yatsu wa daaaaaaaaaaaaaai kirai da... Who is that person?... Guess, and you might be right...
Well, that's all for now... I think after this I will only type (since I'm using a keyboard instead of a pen) about what's happening in my life when I feel like doing so... Else I'll be talking about my thoughts from time to time... I've yet to have any deep interest in anything as compared to Tenzan and wrestling... Maybe I'll find something... Soon... I think... Bleargh...
Thursday, September 02, 2004
Ahh... Another update :p...
Bleargh... Damn long time since the last update... Here's a short brief of what had happened...
-became the one and only tagless committee of convest 2004 (that's Convocation Fiesta 2004)...
-had to juggle between data entry job and convest job (taking care of the Convest Gallery stall)...
-notified that the data entry salary (outstanding RM252) will only be paid on 15th the earliest TT__________TT...
-met alex at Mid Valley... She's hot :p... No wonder she always got stared back at Sandakan XD XD...
-Went to KLCC for Merdeka Celebration (will elaborate more)
-currently feeling very, very low...
Now I'm going to elaborate on the last three items... Yep, Xiong managed to drag me to Mid Valley to meet her jie, that is Alexia (the one I got into trouble with >.<)... She doesn't really look like she's looking forward on meeting me, though... Not suprised at all, nor disappointed, considering what happened between me and her... It may not be a big deal for her, or anybody else, but it's a big deal for me... Watched House of the Dead (lousy, don't EVER watch it), and later head back to UIA...
As for the KLCC Merdeka celebration, it's rather a long story... I was hoping to meet Kaede there, but ended leaving UIA very late due to transportation problems (the buses was even worse than your average sardine can >.<)... When I finally reached Terminal Putra Gombak, I met Khalid, a fellow schoolmate and also a close friend of Ihab... He offered me to go to KLCC with him and his friend, but his friend misunderstood the plan and thought that I want to go back to UIA... So I had wasted my time there waiting for him... Bleh... Tried to contact Kaede by the time I reached KLCC, but no luck there... So, I went up and down the stairs, went to the park, hang out here and there, walked all the way to Sungai Wang, then back to KLCC for the firework (subarashii, since it's the first firework show I've ever seen live), then back to Sungai Wang, then to KLCC, again, and then head to Merdeka Square... Then I got this idea of going to Masjid Negara (they had showers there, and I'm in a dire need of one), but found out thet its gates are locked =.=... So I walked all the way to Pertama Complex, sit there for about 2 hours, called Kaede to apologize... Sit some more, then head back to KLCC (it was a mess, I tell you... looks like KL had just been attacked... bodies all over the places, not to mention the rubbish... somehow I can't differentiate between the rubbish and the bodies XD), and straight to Ampang Park... Arrived at UIA at 7am, and went straight to sleep once I got into bed... Woke up at 5pm (w00t)...
As for the last item, I'm wondering whether I'm really alive... Whether my existence is important to others... And whether they appreciate my existence... Why am I asking all this questions?... Because I'm so lonely... And I don't want to be selfish... I can't bug Kaede since she's busy with her studies and all... And I'm not sure if I'm in the setsunasa mood to spend my time with Ihab... And all my so-called "friends" would only seek me when they have problems... Why can't I have someone who would voluntarily spend their time with me?... Why can't any of them voluntarily cry with me?... Then again, I should have known better... I'm not as reliable as I thought I am... Just look at what happened between me and Alex... Disastrous... Last night "he" came, and I was glad... But he only came so that he could kill some time before he meet his brother... And days before that, "she" sent me a message, asking me what do I think about when I'm walking alone... I answered that I would be thinking of "her", "him", and some other things, and she replied that we are the same... And I was glad... But I know better than to have false hopes... Some lousy life I have, right...
-became the one and only tagless committee of convest 2004 (that's Convocation Fiesta 2004)...
-had to juggle between data entry job and convest job (taking care of the Convest Gallery stall)...
-notified that the data entry salary (outstanding RM252) will only be paid on 15th the earliest TT__________TT...
-met alex at Mid Valley... She's hot :p... No wonder she always got stared back at Sandakan XD XD...
-Went to KLCC for Merdeka Celebration (will elaborate more)
-currently feeling very, very low...
Now I'm going to elaborate on the last three items... Yep, Xiong managed to drag me to Mid Valley to meet her jie, that is Alexia (the one I got into trouble with >.<)... She doesn't really look like she's looking forward on meeting me, though... Not suprised at all, nor disappointed, considering what happened between me and her... It may not be a big deal for her, or anybody else, but it's a big deal for me... Watched House of the Dead (lousy, don't EVER watch it), and later head back to UIA...
As for the KLCC Merdeka celebration, it's rather a long story... I was hoping to meet Kaede there, but ended leaving UIA very late due to transportation problems (the buses was even worse than your average sardine can >.<)... When I finally reached Terminal Putra Gombak, I met Khalid, a fellow schoolmate and also a close friend of Ihab... He offered me to go to KLCC with him and his friend, but his friend misunderstood the plan and thought that I want to go back to UIA... So I had wasted my time there waiting for him... Bleh... Tried to contact Kaede by the time I reached KLCC, but no luck there... So, I went up and down the stairs, went to the park, hang out here and there, walked all the way to Sungai Wang, then back to KLCC for the firework (subarashii, since it's the first firework show I've ever seen live), then back to Sungai Wang, then to KLCC, again, and then head to Merdeka Square... Then I got this idea of going to Masjid Negara (they had showers there, and I'm in a dire need of one), but found out thet its gates are locked =.=... So I walked all the way to Pertama Complex, sit there for about 2 hours, called Kaede to apologize... Sit some more, then head back to KLCC (it was a mess, I tell you... looks like KL had just been attacked... bodies all over the places, not to mention the rubbish... somehow I can't differentiate between the rubbish and the bodies XD), and straight to Ampang Park... Arrived at UIA at 7am, and went straight to sleep once I got into bed... Woke up at 5pm (w00t)...
As for the last item, I'm wondering whether I'm really alive... Whether my existence is important to others... And whether they appreciate my existence... Why am I asking all this questions?... Because I'm so lonely... And I don't want to be selfish... I can't bug Kaede since she's busy with her studies and all... And I'm not sure if I'm in the setsunasa mood to spend my time with Ihab... And all my so-called "friends" would only seek me when they have problems... Why can't I have someone who would voluntarily spend their time with me?... Why can't any of them voluntarily cry with me?... Then again, I should have known better... I'm not as reliable as I thought I am... Just look at what happened between me and Alex... Disastrous... Last night "he" came, and I was glad... But he only came so that he could kill some time before he meet his brother... And days before that, "she" sent me a message, asking me what do I think about when I'm walking alone... I answered that I would be thinking of "her", "him", and some other things, and she replied that we are the same... And I was glad... But I know better than to have false hopes... Some lousy life I have, right...
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